A Letter To My Younger Self
I went for a run about a week ago, on a Sunday, out of all days. Somewhere in between my attempts not to fall, breathing, and avoiding eye contact with strangers, I stopped for a second for some air. Don’t ask me why, but all of a sudden, Timbaland’s “If We Ever Meet Again” started playing. I had a good chuckle when his voice went all “What’s somebody like you, doing in a place like this?”, because what on earth was I doing running (!!!) and on a Sunday, right? It suddenly dawned on me that my amazing skills at overthinking would lead me into a full-scale reflection on my life without even knowing it; all of this a week before my 20th birthday. What’s somebody like me doing in a place like this, after all?
Dear younger Diego:
The answer to the question you posed above is a lot more difficult to answer than you think. Getting here has been quite a journey; not only because you’re living on the other side of the world, but because you’ve been through a lot more than you’ve ever cared to acknowledge.
We’re not going to discuss them dark days in detail; for today is a celebration and you’ve already learned everything you possibly could from them. I’m just going to give you a few pointers for your next life. We’re humans and we’re bound to make mistakes, but just don’t let those mistakes become errors.
You got “Let It Be” tattooed on your arm for a reason. Now don’t be afraid to let the universe work it’s magic. Five years ago, did you ever think this is where you’d be today? Exactly. Stop trying to figure things out all at once, and let things take their own course. If it’s meant to be, then it will happen.
No one ever notices your nose until you make an awkward comment about it, so if I were you, I’d stop the nose jokes. I know you’ve been trying to, but old habits die hard; so if you stick to them nose jokes, at least keep them creative 😉
Keep laughing with yourself, and don’t ever laugh “at” yourself anymore. There’s plenty of other people who’d be up for the job, and they probably will, even if you don’t want them to. Laughter is the best medicine, so laugh with yourself as often as you can.
Forgive yourself for things you said or did and cannot longer take back. The past is in the past, and that’s where it should stay.
Where there is a flame, someone’s bound to get burnt. Taking that risk is okay every now and then, for you never know who who’ll be the one to heal all of you wounds. Just keep your eyes open and remember that some people create more wounds than they cure. Don’t let them do that to you. Share your beautiful heart only with those who’ll share theirs with you as well.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help. You’ve got amazing friends and family all across the globe who’ll be there for you whenever you need them, for whatever reason that might be. Take care of yourself just as much as you take care of others. Treat yourself every now and then. Love yourself, too.
Say what you think and say it out loud. You were given a voice for a reason. Use it wisely and don’t use it to hurt anyone. You only get what you give, so give out as much love as you possibly can, for God will make sure you get back twice as much in return.
And last but not least, say goodbye to your old-self. Say goodbye to all of the fears, insecurities and negativity that was holding you back. The best years of your life are yet to come. Not every day will be sunny and bright, but that’s okay. Its on the dark days you’ll learn the most about yourself. You’ll hurt and you’ll cry, all of which will teach you the most valuable lessons. Smile, even if your hurting. Dance, even if they’re watching. Make the most out of every day, and be thankful for every single chance you get to discover yet a new unknown aspect of yourself. And if we ever do meet again, don’t be afraid to say hi.
Happy birthday, Diego.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who’s made the past 20 years of my existence so damn precious! Here’s to the next 20 and all of the other ones to come!
It also turns out today is #WorldMentalHealthDay so if you live too far away from me to ship me a gift, then please consider making a donation to Lady Gaga’s “Born This Way” Foundation by clicking on this link. I know for a fact I would’t be where I am if I hand’t got the help I needed. This is just a chance to give back to those who need it the most. Thank you in advance